I guess I'll do a blog, or how I learned to stop worrying and write in my journal on the computer

Journal, I couldn't say that writing is my forte. . . although I guess you could say that it is my mezo forte . . . certainly not my pianissimo - anyways! I have decided to try typing my journal for a while to see if this will at all relieve the stress I feel sometimes in trying to get all my feelings out, through my hand into a pen onto a page. I sometimes feel a little bit like Nephi - the awkwardness of my hands just causes a serious problem in writing. So since I feel a bit more confident typing, we'll see how this goes.
I have stumbled into this incredible situation in my life where I am dating a girl named Ashley Rodgers. Am I embarrassed to say that I care about nothing else really? Deep down the gospel is incredibly important to me, as is being a Christ-like human being . . . my future is also extremely important to me, and so what I do "now" always is weighed by how it will effect my "then". But really in the forefront of all I see and do is Ashley. In a way, I see her as my future and I see her as my now and I see her as helping me become a Christ-like person and I see her helping me to live the gospel! So with her so closely tied to the most important parts of myself, I love her. What is love what is love what is love? How many songs and movies and books and poems ask and answer this question? Love is devotion - love is obsession, in part. Love is a beautiful respect you gain for something you can't really understand but want to so bad! Love is a place you go when you can't appreciate something enough. Yeah I am way too philosophical, but I am just in love and I'm sure no one has ever been able to explain what that really means.
Ashley: I could write a book about Ashley. She is Gorgeous inside and out! Her personality and sense of humor are as cute and alluring as are the sprinkled freckles on her face. She is the most genuine human being I have ever met. She is clean, clear and honest - pure and virtuous and wonderfully straight forward and well intentioned. She has Charity - the pure love of Christ - and this is what attracts me to her more than anything else. She emminates a special light that lifts and warms other people . . . and this is what I have always been looking for! Ashley oh that girl . . . Ashley is gone to florida for a month without me to get bunion sergury on her poor little feets. Tomorrow she goes in and there going to cut her all up! We have been having the most incredibly great phone relationship for the last 2 weeks. Okay let me be totally honest for a second and then we'll get back to the Ashley thing - I sort of get anxiety when I write about my life because it never really comes out in a way that will accurately represent how I feel! Okay, I just needed to get that out. So continuing with what I WANT to talk about. Ashley and I have been dating for over two months - is that short or long? I guess it depends on who you're talking to. I think that is an amount of time that says, 'okay, I am seriously interested in where this could go, let's find out.' I love her journal. . . I know I know, leave it to me to fall head over heels for someone that fast, but really it wasn't that fast! I have known ashley since after last summer, that is nearing a year now. We were friends for that long and developed feelings for eachother early on in that stage. Those feelings had time to progress and emerge over that series of months and fully surfaced after Anna and I broke up just before Christmas break. This is the real deal journal, I have never felt this way for anyone before! I can't even type what I mean.