+OH THE DANCE OF LOVE+

Someday, we will probably be married and maybe THEN everything will slow down and calm down and be peacefull and be wonderful. Maybe? I'm sure you're like "that's wishful thinking, dear." And it probably is, but life is so unsure and crazy and fidgety and weird right now. I wish it were december. School is harder than I wish it was. I want to get better at planning and time management and memory. Sometimes I get frusterated with how much I am able to forget! Sometimes I just want to drop out of school and be a hippie in the mountains . . . but then I think about how self serving that is and I don't do it.

Things have been good here. I can say that Ashley and I have been closer than ever before! We spend a lot of time together . . . and I am really not sure if that is good or bad because soon enough we will spend ALL of our time together so does that mean we should probably take advantage of our atonomy or is that a good thing because we obivously LIKE spending ALL of our time together? I don't know . . . I think probably way too hard about stuff sometimes - all the time.

I feel heavenly father has blessed be with a lot more self-confidence recently. That has been really nice. I continue to rely on him for support! I know he can help me become the man I want to be and the husband and father that I would like to present for my family.

Soon Ashley and I will be taking our wedding announcement photos. That is neat. We are going to do somthing similar to this cool picture with the paino couple. This will be a neat step that will help us feel a lot closer to how real the whole thing is. Sometimes the whole thing seems so distant and UNreal. I have told Ashley that sometimes it feels like we're planning somebody else's wedding together.

Well, I have way too much homework to do now, so I must go! Bye bye now!