I WILL GO, I WILL DO!

So life is certainly so incredible! I love it and I am so grateful for it! I love Ashley Rodgers and I am astounded that heavenly father has given her to me - such a clumsy steward. This past week has been totally awesome! Work has been fun and school has been fine and Ashely and I have been so close this week! Monday night, we had one of those crazy intense emotional conversations . . . I expressed some serious doubts about our compatibility (mostly I was just moping and trying to get attention). We left each other quite upset. I wondered the part crying and praying until 2 in the morning. Ashley did about the same thing in her room. Heavenly Father and I did some real serious talking and he told me to stop being like Laman and Lemuel and doubting his words and answers and puting my reasoning above his. I decided to be like Nephi and try to stop doubting and GO and DO! I am so greatful for that story and the contrasts it teaches! The next day and untill now I have tryed with all my heart to beleive that everything is fine and that there is NO CRISIS! And it has served me well. Sometimes I think that Heavenly Father has given me my struggles JUST so I will learn to turn to Him! And I think if I didn't have them, maybe I wouldn't turn to Him and for that I am greatful for my problems.

Ashley is so sweat to me and good to me! She tries so hard to understand me and occomodate me! I am so amazed at her boundless patience with me and her pure and christlike love for me! I wanna cry when I think about it sometimes. She is undescribable. It is awesome to be in a relationship with her for this long - I have never really gone this long and I have certainly NEVER been so close to someone or trusted someone SO much as I trust her - Our lives our linked so deep now! Who would've guessed what some words at an FHE would turn in to (I went ring shopping again today with Meredith and my Mom)!

Yesterday we went to our bishop's house and spent time with him and his wife and their daughter and her two daughters from colorado. The Little girl we were there to see mainly is named Haley. We have become her college pen pals! Her and her little sister Brecken are SOO tender. We played and ate dinner and did fireworks and just had a great time! I love those guys.

Today we rented 3 movies from BYU for $1.00! And we watched two of them - Fried Green Tomoatoes and Swing Kids. It was fun - Ashley and I are usually pretty active and busy, so it was nice to have a day off and be bums. This weekend we spent some time with Meredith and went swimming with her and watched the Sponge Bob Square Pants movie! I love that girl.

Well, the night grows old and I must go! Life is wonderful, I need to continue to build my self confidence, Ashley Confidence and Jesus Confidence!