WOW I haven't written in far too long! I apologize! Not writing in my journal is a symptom of ingratefulness, forgettfullness, not having a computer-ness and ashley being back in Utah-ness. Our trip to florida was amazing. It was really good and also really hard at some times. Ashley and I learned incredibly important stuff about ourselves, eachother and our relationship. It was overall an extreemely positive expirience! I had so much fun and am extreemely greatful to have been able to spend so much time getting to know her family in an intimate way.
After florida has been very interesting as well. We have been a bit back and forth, trying to establish an intimate connection with eachother. We have drawn very very close, sharing personal and sensitive information. We have backed up, fearing and becoming defensive. We have been on a very great journey so far together. Honestly sometimes I feel as though we have been together for 5 years instead of 5 months. I have had only one other relationship this long and it ended up 1.5 years long - with Whitney. I am greatful to learn about what it means to serve, please and accomodate eachother. I have expirienced greater joy in this relationship than anywhere else in my life - I have also expirienced greater fear, here than ever before.
What I am learning now, is the pricelessness of focusing on Ashley and others and trying my very darndest (with the help of the Lord) to not focus inwardly on myself!
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