4 MORE DAYS - or - REVELATION ON THE HILL

I went to the hill yesterday. This hill is frought with history and memories, for Ashley, Meredith and I. They loved this hill even from before I was in the picture. . . and now that they're gone, it is my hill. I go there to think and feel peaceful and pray to heavenly father. From the hill you can see the provo temple pretty well . . . I was there last night during the most peacefulk sunset, reading my book - the seven pricipals of making marriage work by john gottman, by the way I only have 25 pages left and I will finish it today, and I decided to ask heavenly father some questions. I was going to explain to him that this week, I was planning on going to the temple, to ask Him seriously about marrying Ashley. But before I could really begin describing it, the spirit came over me and enveloped my mind in teaching - in a flash of intelligence, the spirit told me that I have made considerable ground and progress in the two areas heavenly father had seen fit for me to improve before he would give me an answer about Ashley. . . Number one: you need to become a responsible human being. . . Secondly, you need to become a little bit more emotionally grown up." Remember that? Well on the hill in a moment of power, the spirit recounted to me how I have been really improving in those areas.
It showed me that the recent AMAZING progress I have been making over the past few months in the relationship with my mother is GREAT evidence that I am growing up emotionally (other things it told me were evidence as well). It also showed me how I have been working so hard on using my planner and scheduling things and being on time to things and writing in my journal and remembering things and becoming much more responsible (Side note: not that I am done growing in either of these areas, I just have made some great strides). So after the spirit showed me this, I expressed gratitude and then I began to ask the question: "So then, father . . . the only thing that holds me back from deciding to marry Ashley is I want your approval . . . Father - " and before I could really finish the question, I felt that heavy warmth enter my chest. The familiar spirit of confirmation of the Holy Spirit! Oh I love that feeling! I think I laughed and said "well okay" or somthing. Then it got stronger and almost overwhelmed me. I cryed and laughed and stood up on the hill and sang a really loud note to the world and I felt SO HAPPY! The holy ghost is a foretaste of what the celestial kingdom will be like (says preach my gospel) and the joy I felt only can be a peace of that glory!
OH MY LIFE IS AMAZING! The spirit has wittnessed to me that I should marry Ashley Elizabeth Rodgers and now I am so excited! Oh it's so fantastic to have that knowledge in my heart! I feel so powerful and I feel like nothing can make me hurt or afraid! WOW! Amazing things . . .